manis lima belas

yesterday. me & my mom conversation.

it's my birthday tomorrow, i announced.
(i never expect she'd remember my birthday, or any of us anyway)

ooh? may Allah grant you happiness, long life, healthy and wealthy. she offered.
i smile.

i'm gonna be 32. but i feel like 17, ever.
proud me.

what? seventeen?
she cut.
i think u r just my little sweet FIFTEEN, ever!

i grinned.

thanks Ma. you really know best for us. and to win our heart.

so, today i feel like a sweet fifteen re-birth.
*wink*

wake-up call

or a make-up call?
no i'm not a face painter. i go about plain & simple.

so tis is about a wake-up call. my neighbor drop by my shop just now with few slices of kek lapis. baked by her fren. samples for order.
i taste 'em. (not all). nice. yummy

then we chatted. she told me about her last operation. surprising. tho we live next doors but we seldom catch up each other. normally just a simple "hai" and smiles.
today i just learned about her endometriosis and cyst. And operation last year, then her regular check ups to gynae and hormone injections then followed by pregnancy and her recent miscarriage!

oh mi oh my! it seems real updates for me this morning.

she told me about her symptoms which lead her to gynae. she had problem with mense cycle which delayed every months for the past a year.
tht's my wake-up call ! i'm having that same problem actually since...i'm not sure. but it has been this irregular since the delivery last four years!!
*gulp*

now i know i really need to extend a visit to my gynae somehow.
sooner is better.
*krrriiiiiinnggg*

#p.s : she miscarried twin baby. *huhu*

di awan biru

*senyum sendiri*

kita suka tengok dia, especially lately. nampak ada perubahan.
dulu masa kita kecik-kecik lagi dah biasa dengar lagu dia kat radio dan tv.
ye lah, sape tak kenal dia kan. bukan takat malaya. rasanya dia ada ramai peminat-peminat jugak kat negara2 jiran.

rumah kita skrg kat atas rumah anak dia. berjiran lah orang kata. kadang2 kita terserempak jgk jiran kita tu tapi tak pernah sapa. kita pemalu sikit. *ehem*

pernah dulu anak dia tu singgah kat kedai kita. tapi dia tak perasan kita ni jiran dia kot.
kita tak femes. lagipun, kita ni kan pemalu. *ehem*

semalam, kita jaga kedai macam biasa. pagi.
kita dok mengemas macam biasa.
almaklum le, kuli sdn bhd. :)
pastu ada sorang wanita datang, nak beli suratkhabar. pregnant, agak dah sarat jugak.
kita senyum macam biasa.
tetiba...ada sorang lelaki menyusul. dari ekor mata kita tahu itu "dia". casual, jeans biru dan t-shirt putih.
kita berdebar. tapi kita control. kita senyum macam biasa.

kita tak pandang dia directly. kita kan pemalu! *ehem*
rupanya wanita tu isteri dia. si isteri bagi duit bayar newspaper.
"terima kasih"..tu je yang kita mampu cakap.

kita pemalu, rupanya.

dia & isteri berlalu pergi. kita senyum sorang-sorang.
dia masih hensem, kita kata dalam hati.

kita suka.

arini kita tunggu jugak, kalau-kalau dia nak singgah beli newspaper lagi.
tapi..taraaakk...

tapi takpe. kita masih happy.
kita rasa macam di awan biru.
*senyum sendiri*

"berbaloi-baloi...."

dia
(sumber gambar : goooogle)

al-ahzab : 59

"O Prophet! Say to your wives and your daughters and the women of the faithful to draw their outergarments (jilbabs) close around them; that is better that they will be recognized and not annoyed. And God is ever Forgiving, Most Merciful."

mutiara haya

i love 'em.
i like 'em nicely packed in the box. ideal for gift-away.

after a loooong while with no new purchase, finally now i got' em to top my hijab collection.
you may find them here. they accept online orders.

or, call me for appointment. i'll arrange my fren to assist.

hmm..now i'm imagining a nice abaya for this coming eid. donned with tht top.
*grin*

note for self : ganti pose cepat2. baru boleh berangan baju baru.

perkara

hidup tak selalunya seperti dirancang.

khamis malam lepas, Mr K mengadu sakit perut dan sakit belakang.
i tot it's just normal food poisoning so after tutup kedai at nine, baru bawak dia ke klinik.
tapi kat klinik dia mcm dah tak tahan sgt sakit, almost meraung. cuak jugak.
lepas doc inject painkiller, masih sakit katanya. doc bagi surat, kalau tak okay jugak suruh bawak ke hospital.
so malam tu dalam pukul 11 lebih, bawak dia ke eSJayeMCee.
masuk emergency, ding dong ding dong pkl 2 pagi masuk ward.
doc kata mungkin kidney stone.
again?
bila check dalam rekod, 3 tahun lepas dah kena kes yg sama.
dan dah operation jugak kat hospital yg sama.
adeih.
besoknya...lepas x-ray dan CT scan, confirm kidney stone. doc bg few option. dia pilih nak laser. apa-apa saya setuju je.
operation tu cuma ambik masa sejam. minor.
alhamdulillah yang penting dia dah okay. phew...
pagi sabtu dia dah boleh keluar hospital. (dan siap drive sendiri lagi). hehe

hidup tak selalunya seperti dirancang.

pagi sabtu, dapat sms dari Pembantu Kedai.
dia dapat tawaran sambung belajar di UiTm, notis nak berenti dan dan tu jugak.
*berpeloh kejap*
resignation accepted. ye lah, takkan kita nak halang dia nak sambung belajar kan.
cuma ralat lah sikit bila tiba-tiba takde assistant.

anyway, life must go on.
since that saturday, saya full-time di kedai.
seronok dan puas hati sebenarnya bila kita jaga sendiri, cuma rasanya agak terikat.
aktiviti harian re-scheduled.
sesetengah perkara terpaksa ditangguhkan.

hidup tak selalunya seperti dirancang.

musykil

ada seorang hamba allah, 2-3 hari ni saya selalu nampak dia dekat area kedai ni.
first day i spotted him talking to the makcik cafe. and the others.
apparently he had a business deal with them. i care nothing.

yesterday he was here again. approached me, with him it was a blender. glass type, quite big size.
Tujuh puluh je kak.
Tak nak lah, blender kat umah bley pakai lagi.
*frowned* mana dia dapat barang2 nih?

just now, he managed to close a deal with me.
yogurt. very cheap. he brought 5 packs.
i asked,
mana dapat ni?
saya keje kt kilang.
kilang? kat mana?
bukan kilang..kedai..supply barang2 runcit.
*frowned* errmm..bukan barang curi? kalau barang curi saya tak bley ambik. tak berkat saya nk meniaga.
eh tak lah kak...
(but he dare not looked at my eyes)

later, i asked the makcik cafe.
sape mamat tu yang datang semalam tu?
hah kenapa? dia jual apa arini?
tadi jual yogurt kat saya. saya ambik. 5 pek je.
MAT GIAN le tu...dia datang sini aritu jual minyak masak, bawang....bla bla bla. aunty ambik la, MURAH

GULP!

so.
wht shud i do with tht yogurt now?
i dun think i wan to sell them. dah kira macam bersubahat plak.
then, bwk balik kasi ummar minum. dia suka.
tapi...now i know the source is NOT HALAL.
tapi...the deal between me & him is HALAL, kan?
at tht point of transaction, i understood that it's not BARANG CURI.

errrm.
what say you?

Chocz Parlour

Am watching TiViTiga morning slot and caught these 3 jejaka malaya with their chokolatz.
Impressed lah.
Those are made from local cocoa. Handmade (i suppose) with passion by these young muslim entrepreneur.

look out for their signatures here.

and guess what, i just visit their blog. Messages flood their shoutbox alredi.
Good huh, power of TV ads.
(kalau le saya mampu iklan kat TV jugek, thehe)

note : chocz-ing classes available. hurry, sign up if you interested.

perut mudo

ramai yang tanya. "kenapa lama tak online? busy ke? business macamana?"

*senyum*
(dalam hati) rupanya ada jugak yang masih ingat kat Hamba Allah ni. Alhamdulillah.
jawapan tulus. "takde la busy sangat. tak online sbb takde internet connection."

dan, ada jugak yang tanya. "dah lama tak nampak awak kat kelas. busy ye?"
(dalam hati rasa malu). "takde la busy sangat. biasa-biasa je. cuma lately ada hal sikit, tu yang rasa terikat sikit schedule pagi."

bila difikirkan, urusan dunia memang tak pernah selesai, kan.
dulu masa jadi employee, saya selalu bayangkan...bestnya kalau tak keja. tak payah bangun awal pagi, mandi pagi-pagi. :)
tapi sekarang bila kerja sendiri, pun kena bangun pagi. :)
dan masih terkejar-kejar rushing hour setiap pagi, termasuk weekend.

saya cuma mampu berdoa semoga urusan dunia selalu dipermudahkan dan tidak melalaikan.

kadang2 rasa simpati dgn sesetengah orang yg selalu 'mengeluh' dengan jadual kerja/bisnes yang terlalu padat sehingga kadang2 mungkin mereka tersilap menilai keutamaan sesuatu perkara. hidup cuma sementara.

sebagai anak kdg2 kita terlupa utk meluangkan sedikit masa untuk ibubapa.
sebagai isteri kdg2 kita terlupa untuk menjaga hati suami.
sebagai ibu kdg2 kita terlupa untuk menunaikan tanggungjawab kpd anak2.
sebagai hambaNya kita mungkin terleka dan mengabaikan suruhanNya.

pernah tak kita terfikir...bagaimana jika hari ini ialah hari terakhir?
hari terakhir kita atau hari terakhir org kesayangan kita. adakah kita bersedia?
atau..adakah kita sanggup memikul beban sesal sehingga ke akhir hayat?

sekadar ingin berkongsi & renungan untuk diri sendiri.

wallahualam.

# nota kaki :
Hanya Allah dan Hamba Allah tertentu yang memahami tajuk post ini.

gambar hiasan

dirham

kenapa ye.
kalau kita ada utang dgn sesiapa, kita rasa orang tu akan chase kita gila-gila.
walaupun kadang2 amount tu tak sampai 200 dirham ponn, tapi gaya nya dia nak kita bayar URGENT lah amat.

biasa lah adat meniaga ni kan, tak semuanya Cash term.

kenapa ye.
bila orang pulak yang utang ngan kita, SUSAH amat dia nak bayar.
kita pulak yang segan nak mintak sbb dah remind byk kali.

o_O

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suka nonton

drama ni.

biasanya kalau kat rumah si kecik tu je yang control tv channel.
(24 hrs - x hrs) = TV-ON hrs
* x = masa tidur dia.

tapi lately every friday nite this mommy nak jugek berebut remote control. tak kira!
first time i tgk drama tu, i suka background tu. rumah kampung kat sawah padi. hijau...sejuk mata memandang.
soon i realised jalan cerita nya pun menarik.
tak merapik merapu ntah hape2 and tak boring. lain dpd drama2 melayu lain. ekceli dah lama i tak layan drama2 kat tv ni, byk sgt yang ntah hape2 and too streotype. kalau tak cerita hantu and such, cerita polis, cerita "antara 2 darjat" dan seangkatan.

so, ada sape2 yg follow cerita ni jgk tak?

fifth

yesterday. evening.
a phone call.

"hello...how are you?"
"fine..."

"long time not see you...i miss you"
(laughing) "ittezerako neehh. sorry neh i'm late. i go back after 40 mins. today thursday, islamic class"
"okay..see you soon"

And she smiled.
Happy Anniversary Hubby.

i love july

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

*pause*
hhmm. where shud i start, again?

*pause*
you know, this little strange feeling when u have so many things to say, to write.
Yet u just not sure how to start.

Let say.."here i am again".
and hopefully will be able to update this page more often from now.
Insha-Allah